Mood:  a-ok

Looking at yourself in a mirror is not a joyous thing especially when you don't like what you see.  I have avoided looking in a mirror for quite some time so for me to walk past my daughter's bedroom last month and finally getting a real good look at what my body looks like now, as opposed to two years ago, was a wake up call for me. 

I have been roughly the same weight for the past 3 years, hovering in the 160's and for a while there it was okay because I was a little more toned.  But now at the age of 42 that tone is starting to get a little flabby and I got a rude awakening.  I can honestly say I am still the same size I was 3 years ago.  I still wear a size 10 but it is now about covering up instead of showing.  I wear big shirts to cover up the fact that my stomach is not as firm as it was 6 months ago.  I don't mind being a size 10 but I want that firmness back in my body.  That mirror really woke me up.

This morning I had my last off-plan breakfast, sort of a goodbye meal.  I had a croissant, with 2 egg, cheese and bacon -- a whopping 413 calories.  In the past I used to justify my eating a high calorie meal by eating a lower calorie lunch or dinner.  Doesn't change a thing if you don't get up off the couch and do some exercise.  Which I will admit I have become a couch potato of sorts, which is interesting because I don't have a couch right now.  LOL.

So starting today I am going to be brutally honest.  I am going to write-down what I am eating, how much I am exercising and what I am drinking.  My goal is to lose 20 pounds by my 43rd birthday which is July 14th.  Let's see if I can make it.  The biggest part of any plan is getting off with the right attitude and right now I know I want to be in the best shape I can possibly be before summer and stop covering it up.

2008-03-02
10:33:10